My Lord is taking care of me and my loved ones (poem)

Neither, it is the support from family,
nor, it is experiencing a love relationship,
or, it is the worry about my dearest children,
now, it is Only about being in the Divine Light.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Now, I am able to see the complete picture (poem)

When I had blind fold, I could not see.
When I was mind, I could not perceive.
With the blind fold of emotions released,
and a heart connection made, now I see.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Gratitude leads to Joy (poem)

Thank You God for this moment, with this awareness.
Thank You God for my 10 year old daughter, sleeping next to me.
Thank You God for my 6 year old son smiling, dressed in my hat and sunglasses.
Thank You God for making me send out sincere blessings, to the person who is unkind towards me.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Accepting the Differences (poem)

I lived in darkness about my relationship with the father of my kids for the first 11 years, for I did not know any better.

Then, through a series of circumstances, I realized that there was no respect, love or connection in my marriage. That night, I lost my trust in him.

After that for the next 2.5 years, I started seeking from Light within, and hanged in the marriage, only because it is good for our kids (my son is 6 and my daughter is 10) and tried to improve our communication. But, nothing changed.

Now, I wish to pursue my life with love, respect, courage, authenticity and faith; for I would like my kids to do the same. Therefore, I am following my calling to step out of this marriage and create the change, my spirit wishes me to make. To do so, I am beginning with surrendering my body, mind, spirit and my kids innocent smile at my Krishna's feet in complete faith.

Gunjan Raizada

***

He values money, and I value respect.

He loves to control me, and I love to be just my self.

He needs physical connection, and I need a sacred relationship.

He believes he is the Lord of the family, and I believe God is the only Lord.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Now, I am responsible for my reactions (poem)

When I feel fearful from some one,

I need to speak with power of God,

and pray that he receives Thy light,

in addition to radiating out God's love.

When I feel jealous around someone,

I need to seek what I need from God,

and pray that he gets Thy wisdom,

in addition to sending out my love.

***

Hari Aum Tat Sat

Energy remains Conserved (poem)

Just as energy can convert from water fall to electricity.

God is inspiring me to change self-pity into compassion.

***

Hari Aum Tat Sat

When mind resists... (poem)

When my mind resists,
body experiences a pain,
then the heart begins to cry,
and I loose a precious moment.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Acting with Awareness (poem)

We all need to work,
and we are working,
even Krishna worked,
when He came on Earth.

But, now I know that,
in college I wasn't aware,
I was working very hard,
following mind and peers.

However, after n number,
of competitive exams,
and various successes,
I simply pursued Ph.D.

Now, I wonder as to why,
I followed the confusion,
and wish I had been wiser,
by seeking guidance inside.

Now, I am aware of Him,
and am doing only actions,
which are approved by,
His voice residing within.

Now, perpetual confusion
is being replaced by,
a crystal clear choice,
for its source is DIVINE.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Doing without Doership (poem)

All through the years I acted, as if I were the one who got the scholarship for my Ph.D.. But now, I know, that even back then (in 1992) it was God who did it.

When I act as if this temple of body and mind called Gunjan is “doing”, my karmas form another samskara (an imprint, which keeps me trapped in the cycle of birth and death). But each time I am able to “do” without taking the credit, for God is the real doer, then in that moment my karma (action) becomes imprint free.

That is like walking on sand without imprint and is a baby-yet-definite step towards being my God self.

That is what, as I understand is true Karma, letting God act “through” me.

***

Now, I am not doing any work.
Now, I am not thinking any words.
Now, I am not deciding any plan of action.
Now, I am not resisting God, to use me as His tool.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Now, I am ready to serve my God...(poem)

By singing from the soul,
By writing from the heart,

By being my genuine Self,
By standing up for my truth,

By giving motherly hugs,
By sharing healing blessings,

By teaching Physics via exploration,
And above all by simply following God.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

My Lord has a plan for me (poem)

Since, my Lord is constantly arranging for me,
so whatever is happening presently in my life,
I simply need to accept it all as His divine gift,
for He wishes me to ACT, seeking His pointers.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Krishna, my Savior (poem)

All these years,

I have been a victim,

for I was expecting from people,

and was constantly feeling very repressed.



Now,

I am flowing in creativity,

for I am seeking only from Krishna,

and am feeling fulfilled, receiving all I need.


***

Hari Aum Tat Sat

Dear God, let me merge with You (poem)

Let me seek only You,
Let me think only about You,
Let me speak only Your words,
Let me carry out only Your work.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sa

To save my kids from drowning, I need to learn swimming (poem)

If I don't know how to swim, then I cannot take my kids to swimming.

If I don't know how to save myself from fire, then I cannot teach my kids to do the same.

If I don't know how to stand up for my truth against all odds, then I cannot tell my kids how to.

If I don't know how to first put my oxygen mask in an emergency during flight, then I cannot save my own kids either.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Truthfulness is a blessing (poem)

When I speak aloud my heartfelt truth,
something starts stirring up within me,
I sense my body is manifesting spirit,
in addition to receiving God's blessing.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

When envy arises, remember the truth (poem)

For, heart needs to be trusted, not eyes.
For, jealousy is a reaction, not observation.
For, possessiveness is grasping, not allowing.
For, attaching is the nature of mind, not spirit.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sa

When relationships break, do save the Spirit (poem)

My daughter, accidentally tore open the packet of cereal too wide apart.
As a result the entire 18 oz. of cereal started flowing out of the packet.
To prevent it from spilling on the floor, we had to use the available box.
Once out of the torn packet, the contents felt supported in contentment.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Krishna, please heal my bleeding spirit (poem)

Krishna, please save me from the people, still in their mind.
Krishna, please take me closer to people, who are in their heart.

Krishna, please take away people, who are shooting my soul.
Krishna, please surround me with people, who genuinely respect.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Only the people in heart matter, nobody else (poem)

Person who I think is a part of my life, is not truly a part of my life.
And I think so, because he is presently standing near me, in my life.
But, God, tells me, he is there just to deliver an important message.
For the people, who are really a part of my life, are the one in heart.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Crying and Singing Speak Volumes (poem)

When I break down howling,
then I know my spirit is crying,
and I need to pay attention to,
what is that pain trying to point.

When I begin to start sobbing,
then I know my mind is crying,
and I need to pay attention to,
how to get detached from root.

When I sing openly from belly,
then I know my spirit is opened,
and I need to pay attention to,
what led to that expansiveness.

When I sing only from throat,
then I know spirit is unhappy,
and I need to pay attention to,
why it's not genuinely happy.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

God, please guide me (poem)

Dear God,

I am here,
standing at the crossroads,
where past is seen as darkness,
and is being revisited in Light.

I wish to be,
standing at the crossroads,
where present is full of respect,
and is being lived to share Love.

Waiting to hear Your directions,
Gunjan

All I need to do is, Trust, Trust (poem)

All I need to do, is be with God.
All I need to remember, is that God is the doer.
All I need to know, is that God is constantly arranging.
All I need to think, is that God is wishing me to learn and grow.
***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

I feel Liberated (poem)

I had been confused and feeling torn apart for some months, as if I were standing in the middle of fire, calling out for help. There was a lot of pain involved in each release of those deep-rooted pent up emotions.

After months, in that moment, when clarity surfaced, then, I sent out a message and a prayer to the Universe. It was a blessed moment of connection and I experienced liberation of my soul. Here is a humble attempt to communicate that divine experience (sitting on a yoga mat in grass) in words.

***

I feel a soothing uplift in head, as if Krishna is lifting my chin.

I feel releasing of very tender tears, as if Krishna is rescuing me.

I feel gratitude rolling out, as if Krishna is caressing my cheeks.

I feel one with the entire Universe, as if Krishna is rewarding me.


***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Now, I am finding inspiration everywhere (poem)

My grandfather always spoke truth,
and now,
he is inspiring me to stand up,
for my truths.

My mother loved me unconditionally,
and now,
she is inspiring me to do so,
with self-respect.

My kids learn only from my actions,
and now,
they are inspiring me to be,
their role model.

My God communicates in silence,
and now,
He is inspiring me to follow His voice,
in faith.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sa

God is telling me to give to the giver (poem)

Once a hoarder, always a hoarder.
Hoarder of money, hoards even love.

Once a giver, always a giver.
Giver of love, gives even money.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

God is telling me to stop multitasking (poem)

“God, what do you want me to do?” I asked.

“Just be.” He answered.

“What do You mean?” I probed.

“Just do one thing at a time.” He smiled.

***

Hari Aum Tat Sat

God is telling me to like everything alike (poem)

I used to hate going to the gas station,
to fill up the gas, because of the smell,
and I used to feel frustrated, each time,
I had to be there with another driver.

I still don't like going to the gas station,
to fill up the gas, because of the smell,
but I realized, that it is indispensable,
when I am driving, so why complain?

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

God is telling me not to rush (poem)

When I forced open the pressure cooker,
without waiting for it to cool down on its own,
the steam burnt my finger and the rice was not cooked,
then, I applied the ice pack on the burn and closed the lid again.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

I am not the doer (poem)

In childhood, I felt secure.
In college, I experienced fun.
In research, I had scholarship.
Back then I thought, I was doer.

In Yoga, I met the right teacher.
In sickness, I got the right nanny.
In job, I found the perfect match.
Then, I felt, I was surely being led.


In helping, I follow heart's voice.
In uttering, I speak up God's words.
In hugs, I give divine mother's love.
Now, I know that, I am not the doer.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Why did not I know this that...

The act of love making needs to be fulfilling for both husband and wife and not just the husband.

In a successful marriage, love and respect need to be reciprocated; for love supports and respect provides space to be.

Expressing love and affection in bed and outside the bed, is THE bond that either connects husband and wife or throws them apart.

Its okay to let the husband fulfill his desires while having sex, but its allowing abuse, to let him snore away, leaving wife in frustration or tears.

Its really needed to seek help, when something bothers during intercourse, whether it is emotions or physical pain, with an experienced counselor.

The sole purpose of women's breast is to nurture and sustain her infant for the first six months; and it is definitely not a masturbating toy for the husband to fulfill his desires, for his pleasure.

Just like any other emotion or pain, the tags of good or bad needs to be removed from conversations about love and each one of its manifestations, and needs to be openly talked about without feeling any inhibitions.

Love and expressions of love (including glances, words, touch , hug or more) need to be sensed (starting from childhood), by what it triggers in the body, when seen in photos, in public places or even when experienced in person by two readings; first, how it feels in that moment and second, how it feels when it is reflected about, alone.


***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Anger reflects love (poem)

When he is angry with me,
he acts very cold towards me,
by not smiling, or saying bye,
then I sense his love, withheld.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

I am a Spirit (poem)

I am a Spirit, which is pure God.

I am a Spirit, which keeps on Living.

I am a Spirit, which goes on Observing.

I am a Spirit, which is longing to Manifest.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

I am bubble, make me the sea. (poem)

Oh Krishna,
please fill,
each cell in my body,
with Your Light.

Oh Amma,
please replace,
blood flowing in my heart,
with Your Love.

Oh God,
please push,
every thought in my mind,
towards You.

Oh Universe,
please provide,
the crutches for my spirit,
to manifest You.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Bless me, my Lord, to share Your message (poem)

Now, nobody can look at my body lustfully.
Now, nobody can try to squeeze my breasts for pleasure.
For, now, it is a body of divine mother, so those who believe, step forward.
And those, who cannot sense the divine mother, please step out of my way, from manifesting it.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

I like my self, when...(poem)

I like my words, when he is listening.

I like my face, when he is smiling for me.

I like my name, when he calls it out loud.

I like my soul, when he dials into my soul.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Thank You God! (poem)

When he radiated,
that universal love,
to me,
that was a wonderful New Year wish.

When he offered,
his love on the palm,
to me,
that was the best Valentine's day card.

When he welcomed,
me with that loving smile,
to me,
that was a great Thanksgiving blessing.

When he glanced,
towards me in the crowd,
to me,
that was an extremely special Christmas.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Is it love or something like that? (poem)

When two people tie the knot, is it to seek or to give?

When two people get married, is it to boast or for love?

When two people come close, is it to compromise or to respect?

When two people feel connected, is it to the mind or to the heart?

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Why do I choose to worry? (poem)

When I am in a joyous state,
then, I start contemplating on grabbing it,
soon, I start worrying about what if that happens,
and, then I begin losing the joy of being in that moment.

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat

Keep Searching is Wiser than Feeling Disappointed (poem)

I was hungry and was looking for bananas.
When I did not find them on the banana stand, I felt disappointed.

I started looking around and then suddenly, I spotted them hanging on a nail.
When I thanked God, I heard, “If you really need something, keep searching till it is found.”

***
Hari Aum Tat Sat