Happiness Vs Joy (poem)

I was waiting for my turn to get a hug from Amma. The lady sitting next to me shared, that she is not meditating as much as she should be, for she is too busy.

I answered, "You are doing what you are doing, for its giving you happiness. Keep doing it, without feeling guilty, till you begin finding joy in meditation."

And the man overhearing our conversation was smilingly nodding, as if affirming, "Been there, done that."

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I am imperfect,
yet, am complete within.

I seeked happiness,
unaware, joy was within.

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Aum Tat Sat

With God, there is only comfort (poem)

I can either be full of,
fears,
expectations,
and judgements.

Or, I can be full of,
faith,
surrender,
and gratitude.

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Aum Tat Sat

Loving, its a choice I am making... (poem)

Loving,
is the best thing I can do to myself and to the loved one,
and expecting,
is the worst thing I can do to myself and to the loved one.

So, I have a choice,
not to love, for it gives me sadness, when I feel frustrated,
or to just keep loving,
for it blesses me with joy, when I give for the sake of giving.

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Aum Tat Sat

Wonder, what keeps me from being loving? (poem)

What keeps me from connecting to my divine source within?
My self-pity, loneliness, resistances, self-judgement.

What keeps me from seeing the divine in others?
My judging them based on my blocked perspective.

What keeps me from connecting to everyone via heart?
My wishes and attachments, which keeps on expecting.

What keeps me from loving all people in my thoughts and life?
My unkindness to myself, ego, and will do it later attitude.

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Aum Tat Sat

Thank you God, for guiding me (poem)

It feels so good to speak without judgement.
It feels so good to write out from my heart.
It feels so good to be in this moment, now.
It feels so good to follow, guidance within.
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Aum Tat Sat

Universe, I surrender my wishes with its source (poem)

My wishes, bar me,
from being in my heart,
from giving love to everyone,
from feeling oneness with each being.
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Aum Tat Sat

Then why do I judge, those who yield to circumstances? (poem)

Yesterday evening, I entered home cold and hungry with my kids at 5:30 pm.
We were all exhausted and freezing, and we needed instant-pure sugar.
I saw the apples, but I did not have the energy to wash and cut it.
I just grabbed cake from refrigerator, and hogged last 3 slices.

I knew it while eating, its not at all a healthy choice for my body.
But, I still did it, for my body needed the sugar to stand up.
Once I got the strength, I served my kids and ate apple.
I witnessed, my own body yielding to circumstances.

Then why do I judge, those who yield to circumstances?
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Aum Tat Sat

God, Krishna, Master, I surrender...(poem)

my ego,
my body,
my soul,
my mind,
my heart,
my doubts,
my wishes,
my feelings,
my judgements,
my resistances,
my attachments,
my sense organs,
my rights and wrongs,
and the root of my wishes.
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Aum Tat Sat

God, guide me to generate love for all (poem)

God, just as you showed me,
when I was 9, in science fair,
how to generate electricity,
by letting water fall on turbines.

God, guide me now, once again,
when I am 42, in my married life,
how to generate love for all,
from what's pouring towards him.

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Aum Tat Sat

God, bless me so that I can...(poem)

smile at him and swipe off his guilts,
hold his hand and take away his loneliness,
kiss each one of his pains and heal them forever,
care for all beings, everywhere, the way I care for him.

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Aum Tat Sat

Hey, I could be at ease in any realtionship, just by easing myself (poem)

I was trying to squeeze into a kurta,
which has strings on both sides,
which can be pulled to fit,
and both ends were tied.

Then, as I just lossened the knot of one,
and I could very smoothly slide inside,
the kurta without even touching,
the other knotted string.
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Aum Tat Sat

The root of all uneasiness is within (poem)

I was getting belly ache on seeing an old acquaintances picture. Initially, I ran away from that, trying not to see it, and thus prevent my discomfort. But, divine guidance took me through my thoughts and awareness, gave me a complete perspective, as to why that person behaved, much to my dislikng. And it simply vanished, replacing it with compassionate tears. Next time, I was completely at ease, the picture was calm, just like everyone else's.

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If someone's picture bothers me,
its not so much about that person,
its all and only the stories associated,
with the judgements against that person in my head.

This time I pursued my "uneasiness",
and found that I had very strong fears,
from that person based on past experiences,
when I asked for divine perspective, "it" vanished.

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Aum Tat Sat

Today, I say thanks to every person and the Universe, for all my experiences (poem)

When I wish someone's ways would change for better,
then somewhere I am disrespecting the arranger, Universe,
for It is especially arranging, exclusively for my own good,
even though I am not able to see the purpose, in that "moment".

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Aum Tat Sat

When I am with God...(poem)

all my fears leave,
and I am full of love.

all my expectations go,
and I am full of giving.

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Aum Tat Sat

For the goal is the same...

We all have different needs and cravings in our lives, based on our samskaras.

It may be the need for food, money, sex or love, which surfaces due to circumstances.

Each one of us is same at the deepest place within, a pure soul, contaminated due to our past.

So, no matter what the need is, it is simply a hunger, which longs to be quenched, and increases till it finds the fulfilling Source.

Therefore, craving is a craving, no craving is better than another for the experience of fulfillment is the same, oneness with God and everyone.

I had a deep desire for unconditonal love, which sprouted even more,
after my main source (then), my mother left the world and I moved to US after marriage.

In US, I felt more and more lonely without any family and friends, in addition to drastic changes in culture, weather, society, values along with increasing family and its responsibilites.

My health started deteriorating, my frustrations multiplied and my seeeking of unconditional love from my only seemingly possible source, my husband escalated and obviously each time met with equal frustration.

Till on March 7, 2007, I seeked it from the Infinite source, and was led to the connection and digging towards the incessant source of unconditional love present within me, something I was totally unaware of; much like living in an enclosed cave and complaining about darkness.

Now, I know that no route towards fulfillment is better than another, for whatever be the path, the goal is the same.

Presently, I feel complete, and pray that each and everyone be blessed with a connection to their inherent source of infinite and incessant fulfillment, in search of quenching whatever their thirst be.

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Aum Tat Sat

Dissipate energy or channel energy, the choice is mine? (poem)

Why dissipate energy in judging another,
why not use it in creative ways to observe Physics with kids?

Why dissipate energy in expecting from another,
why not use it in loving unconditionally, for it gives me joy?

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Aum Tat Sat

Internal versus External communication (poem)

Everyone's soul is same,
and we are all one in soul with God,
so love each and every soul via That root,
the one and only one which is The common in all.

Everyone's samaskaras are different,
and that is what differentiates us as persons,
so seek all that's needed from the Universal parent,
share it with everyone, that unconditional love as His prasad.

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Aum Tat Sat

Loving is not equal to pain (poem)

The problem is not in loving, but in possesing,
The problem is not in giving, but in expecting.

Therefore, try to love only for the sake of loving,
and enjoy, the joy in giving for the sake of giving.

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Aum Tat Sat

Old habits die hard (poem)

Ego seperates, love binds.
Judgements seperates, caring binds.

Expectation seperates, giving binds.
Then why do I follow my mind, not heart?

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Aum Tat Sat

You are changing my experiences, Thank You God (poem)

Wherever I am,
Whatever I am doing,
Whatsoever I am thinking,
I can choose to be with Thee.

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Aum Tat Sat

Law of conservation of energy hold good in all walks of life (poem)

Today I was feeling cold after waking up,
and I generated heat by going out for a brisk walk.

So, whenever I am experiencing coldness in relationships,
I can generate warmth in relationships by radiating blessings.

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Aum Tat Sat

Even though, I know it very well, resistance empowers it.... (poem)

When my 12 year old daughter speaks rudely,I irritatedly try to discipline her.

When my 7 year old son is throwing up,I am fearful about his next one.

When my husband is criticizing me,I wish that he would change.

Instead of wishing "it" would change, why don't I try blessing?



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Aum Tat Sat

Shubh Deepavali (poem)

On this diwali, let the divine light in your heart glow, shine and radiate.

Namaste,
Gunjan

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Aum Tat Sat

Its high time, I stick to my guns (poem)

Its wiser to channelize,
my energy into creative results,
instead of dissipating into justifying,
to each and every person, why am I doing it,
or even talk to others about why some people are being so,
because now I do know that everything is in perfect divine order,
and they are being, just the way they are, for that is where they had to be,
but now, what I've got to do, is seek directly and ONLY from Him, and share His blessings.

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Aum Tat Sat

Gunjan, do know that He is especially arranging it all for me (poem)

Let clouds be,
Let people be,
Let situations be,
Just be with Thee.

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Aum Tat Sat