Now, my mind cannot stop me from loving, for, I NEED to love (poem)

At age 4, I was very uneasy, for, without my awareness,
my heart wished to love, but my mind was fearful of his anger.

At 16, I was very uneasy, for, without my awareness,
my heart was loving him, but my mind was saying "Its not the right age".

At 22, I was very uneasy, for, with all my awareness,
my heart was loving him, but my mind was blocking, for he had said "no" to me.

At 38 to 42, I was very uneasy, for, with all my awareness,
my heart was craving to love, but my mind was saying, "why love, for he does not care".

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)