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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Wetness messes, attachment pains (poem)

When a wet shirt drops on dry sand,it gets dirty.
When a dry shirt drops on wet sand, it gets dirty.

When I am attached to a person, I am full of pain.
When I am attached to an outcome, I am full of pain.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Simple joys (poem)

Kids inspire me for many things, and right now for digging out their own joys, from simple little things.

***

Toddlers climbing up and down the steps,
or serving coffee made out of dripping sand.

An eight year old jumping from rocking chair to bed,
or a teen diving into the lake doing, the Tarzan jump.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)


Monday, August 29, 2011

This the perfect moment (poem)

To forgive.

To say Thank You God.

To joyfully share, each meal.

To love, dropping mind's judgement.
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Aum Tat Sat (GOd is Truth)

Saturday, August 27, 2011

God, is the goal of my life (poem)

Joy,
is the goal of each moment.

Love,
is the goal of each interaction.


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Aum Tat Sat (

Friday, August 26, 2011

Ages old story, with a new turn (poem)

Nani was unkind to bedridden nanaji,
and, he would let silent tears roll out.

Papa was indifferent to mama's pain,
and, mama continued to cook with hidden tears.

My husband spoke very derogatorily to me,
and, I kept on running inside the restroom to cry.

I used to categorize people as abusers or victims,
till, I seeked Thee and chose to transform into a healer.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Wows (poem)

Wedding wows,
are only till death do us (the bodies) part.

Loving wows,
continue much after death merges us (the souls) into one.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Awareness Matters (poem)

I had led a life of unawareness,
growing up under love & protection.

Now, I am leading a life of awareness,
raising my kids with love & protection.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Nature teach me... (poem)

O kissing breeze, teach me how do you kiss me and dogs alike?
O singing birds, teach me how do you sing joyfuly all the time?
O warm Sun, teach me how do you energize grass and trashbin same?
O mother Earth, teach me how do you nurture ants and people equally?
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thank you God for erasing my helplessness (poem)

For many years,
I felt helpless and lonely,
far away from country, family and freinds,
and falling sick off and on for about 7 years.

Now, after many decades,
I feel lonely at times, but not helpless,
being with my husband and kids, feeling different,
and connecting to the God within as my source of strength.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)


This is what I love in nature... (poem)

the giant hug from the gush of wind,
the breeze fingering through my hair,
the music of dancing leaves on trees,
the melodious singing by hidden birds,

the gentle rub of warm Sun on my arms,
the soothing Mother Earth under trees,
the welcoming "hi" from waving branch,
& the charming swaying of grass blades.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Love Vs Divine Love (poem)

In love,
I've experienced steep highs & dips.

In divine love,
I experience a plateau of high state.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Let noise be, Gunjan you be calm (poem)

Let the garbage truck shove.
Let the leaf blower blow.
Let the street dog bark.
Let the kids yell.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)


Thats listening

The facillitator spoke about her background and intentions to listen all thoughts floating on our minds, which had drawn us all to this meeting.

The first member, spoke about her content life, and her looking forward to the teen kids leave for college, so that she can have more time for herself.

The second member, spoke about her uneasiness with the uncertainty while searching for a fulfilling work; after she had quit her discontent position as an insurance lawyer.

The third member, spoke about her passion to create a space for women to find support in work and life; while she herself was coping with the stress of taking care of her sick husband at home.

The fourth member, spoke about her needing help, to cope with her emotional drowning in her family; her fears of husband's anger and helplessness in leading her own life & raising the kids the way she wished to.

It was an amazing 1.5 hour, where the facillitator provided, the space, with her compassionate listening, judiciously prevented intervention from other member(s) when the speaking member paused; and left the speakers with a clear reflection in their own pool of thoughts.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I am choosing joy over attention (poem)

Each time,
I slip & drown into my emotional sewer,
it costs me my joy, and pays me off with attention,
Now, I am taking the responsibility of being joyful, and creating it.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Let noise be, Gunjan you be within (poem)

I was sitting in the park,
I closed my eyes to be with God,
I was enjoying the cool breeze on face,
and the warm Sun penetrating through the tree.

Suddenly, the loud lawn mower arrived,
I had a choice to step away to another place,
or I could simply ignore that loud noise altogether,
and I chose to thank God, for all those and good hearing.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

I feel someone's pain...(poem)

only if,
either, I really love that person,
or,
I have experienced exactly same pain.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

These are some of my triggers...(poem)

My 8 year old son's,
addiction to Wii games,
watching TV continuously,
crying out loud for attention.

My 12 year old daughter's,
silly mistakes in Math homework,
her blowing bubble gum on my face,
dumping my formal jacket after use.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Body is the best sensor (poem)

When,
body is at ease,
then only,
the mind is calm.

When,
mind is still,
then only,
the soul rests.

When,
soul is content,
then only,
the heart is singing.

When,
heart is smiling,
then only,
the body can dance.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Choose the neighborhood, Gunjan (poem)


Heart feels, mind emotes.

Heart gives, mind expects.

Heart heals, mind interprets.

Heart connects, mind seprates.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Its my responsibility (poem)

When others dishonor my feelings,
I don't honor my own feelings,
my heart shuts down in pain,
I frustrate expecting love.

When I choose to honor my feelings,
I experience a spurt of energy,
my heart fills up with love,
I joyfully share with all.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Monday, August 22, 2011

Hare hare Krishna, hare hare... (poem)

When I longed to be heard, He led me to the kind listener.

When I was full of grief, He provided me a crying shoulder.

When I needed to be caressed, He healed me with gentle touch.

When I was drowning in helplessness, He saved me with security.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Its all in the mind (poem)

I witnessed, during meditation,
that I was talking very firmly,
to someone I fear, like a man,
and the fear had now swapped.

I talked to the one I fear,
face to face with courage,
now, he was all yellow,
and I felt the power.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thank You Mother Earth (poem)

When I lay down on the green grass,
my body surrenderd into the rest,
the peace within enveloped me,
and noise outside dimmed.
***
Aum Tat Sat (poem)

Why Hurry? (poem)

It took 30 minutes to cut veggies,
another 30 minutes to cook it to taste,
and after that, 15 minutes to clean up mess,
then why did I hurriedly, shove it into my mouth?

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Watch out (poem)

Gunjan, drive safely,
so that you don't hurt anyone on the road.

Gunjan, be alert about others,
so that their negligent driving, doesn't hit you.

Gunjan, be careful,
so that your thoughts, words and actions don't hurt any one.

Gunjan, be aware that others,
thoughts, words or actions don't hurt your body, mind, heart & soul.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

I am a victim of my conversations (poem)

Ever since I was 1.5, I think I have been speaking.
Till recently, I was mostly talking to carry a good chat.
Now, I am realizing, if I utter, I've got to open my heart.
And, wisest is to bless silently, stopping all internal chats.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God, make me who I naturally am (poem)

God make me my loving Self,
God make me my singing Self,
God make me my dancing Self,
God make me my laughing Self.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Friday, August 19, 2011

Those 6 hours (poem)

I met an old friend in a new way. Without worrying about kids or families, we talked for complete 6 hours. I returned home as a different person.
Wow, friends are the best healers.

***

Eating Summer Rolls the Vietnamese style,
we talked heart to heart for 2.5 hours.

Spreading out on love seat in coffe shop,
we spoke about aspirations & frustrations.

Driving for half an hour in each journey,
we reconnected like those old Hindu days.

Speaking, listening, laughing and teasing,
we parted, recharged & reunited with love.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

We are all helplessly acting under our Samskaras (poem)

Whatever is happening,
its happening as per divine plan.

All people in my life,
are being the way they are, pefectly.

I keep on reacting the same,
till my samsakara gets broken & erased.

Every person in my life is reacting,
for he/she is also acting under the samskaras.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

In search of High school for my daughter (poem)

A friend asked me,
"What are your plans for your daughter's high school (in Fall 2012)?"

I heard myself say to her,
"You know, my husband wants her to go to a public school, the real world."

Later, I heard a voice within ask me,
"OK, thats what your husband wishes for your daughter, what do you wish, Gunjan?"

When I searched for the answer, I heard,
"I would like our daughter to go to a High School, where she learns how to live joyfully."

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God, heal me so that I can heal (poem)

I don't know what I am here to do,
but this morning, I clearly sense,
that I'am here to heal my own Self,
and to heal my Universe, with God.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Whispered words of wisdom - Let it be (poem)

This morning, while waking up,
the words from within were,
"Just let everything be,
"Just let everyone be."

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Empowerment...(poem)

does not mean becoming a abuser from a victim.
does not mean doing whatever I wish to.
means I have power to create my life.
means to heal self & the abuser.
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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thank you God for the wonderful morning (poem)

When I was in IIT Delhi,
sometimes I would drop by a friends house,
to be greeted by her father reading the news paper,
and I would listen to his calm, healing words (in pure Hindi) about God.

This morning, after 1.5 decades,
I called him up and experienced the same soothness,
he talked with love, contentment and complete surrender to God,
and my soul sensed the coolness, a traveller (feels) under a shade in Sun.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

On my way back Home (poem)

Just as at the beginning of PhD,
I knew I was stepping into a challenge,
and earning the degree, can take upto 5 years,
but, I finally did it, riding success and frustrations.

Similarly, on my return journey,
I know I am walking a challenging trail,
and goal to be one with God, take my whole life,
but, I am choosing to do it, riding tears of joy and pain.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Monday, August 15, 2011

My abuser, is transforming me into a healer (poem)

All pains in my life, are there to seek God.

Every interaction, is here to help me grow.

Each person in my life, is here to teach me.

And, helplessness is the clue towards courage.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Just like me, everyone... (poem)

has a simple need, which must be fulfilled.

has unique ways, to fully express the affection.

longs to be heard, by someone who can be compassionate.

has a deep wish to be loved truly, like the titanic lovers.

has constant mind chatter, depriving complete presence in each moment.

has a hope that life would turn better, when "that thing" will finally happen.

has a strong ego, which keeps on shutting down communication, sensing lack of understanding.

has many triggers, which helplessly makes one react in a predictable ways, leaving others frustrated.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Momentum matters (poem)

I know I am good at
Exploring Physics, Devotional Singing & Hugging.

Then, why don't I,
stay focused on these, for they open & uplift me?

Why do I repeatedly,
pause to seek others approval and dissipate energy?

God, Krishna, Gurus,
please shine Thy Light through my veil of ignorance.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Silence is magical (poem)

While chatting inside or outside,
I am messing up everywhere,
whether I am cooking,
or I am eating.

When I am quiet inside & outside,
I am present to everything,
to my own conversations,
or to listen others.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

I am aware, my subconscious is tearing me (poem)

As a little girl I asked,
"Now, do you love me" to all,
repeatedly, for my reassurance,
felt sad when no, happy when yes.

I am noticing even at 42,
I am still asking the same,
subconsciously to all I meet,
now, its high time, I give it up.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Let others be (poem)

I stopped eating or cooking non-veg,
even if others in my family may choose to.

I am choosing to stop blaming people,
even if others in family and life may choose to.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Friday, August 12, 2011

I am the creator of my life (poem)

Life is not,
when,
something will happen,
its happening right now.

Empowerment is not,
when,
he will give me permission,
its when I am choosing to be.

***
Aum Tat Sat (poem)

Pyar ko pyar hi rehne do koi naam na do (poem)

Those who love me, love me, always.
I know it, without their saying, "I Love you".

Those who don't love me, nothing can ever make them.
I can sense it, despite their saying, "I care for you."

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Whats the point, if I can't enjoy each moment (poem)

After parking, I walked 7 minutes to pick up the burger I liked,
but, since the session was about to start, I hurriedly ate standing,
I did not enjoy that so much craved for, expensive and walked for burger,
If I am not at ease in each and every moment, then whats the point in my life?

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Amidst all that is, I am fine (poem)

I feel helpless,
I need help,
I am fine,
with Him.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thank you God for this...(poem)

Who am I to worry?
Who am I to judge?
Who am I to forgive?
Who am I to complain?

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

The golden key to peace (poem)

I have lived in future,
I have missed past,
I have complianed,
now, be in now.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Noise Vs Aroma (poem)

The grass is being freshly cut,
by the ear plugged lawn mower,
sitting in the mowing car,
which is way too noisy.

The smell of the grass is great,
from those freshly cut edges,
I can move away from noise,
but the aroma draws me.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

What a wonderful day!! (poem)

I called a fellow stranger from the seminar,
to come up next to me and share my lunch.

Picking up trash on the streets of city,
and sharing my favorite coconut water.

Me eating in company of many, quietly,
without talking inside or outside.

Dancing to the hug of the breeze,
and sharing some sweet memories.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Taare zameen pe... (poem)


Driving at 11 pm in the city of San Francisco,
the lights on the Bay Bridge right in front,
and brightly lit sky touching buildings;
stars have come down to meet me.


***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Thursday, August 4, 2011

God, take care of my needs (poem)

I need to love,
I need to share Thy ease,
I need to do Physics with kids,
so give me opportunites to do all this.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

O Master, I need You (poem)

O Master, in October 2006,
when I had inquired about SRCM,
You had started shaking up my body,
to wake me up with a jerk at 4:30 am.

O Master, now in August 2011,
when I am inquiring my own mind,
I need You to awaken my awareness,
to guide me with pointers in each day.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Bless me to experience the mergence (poem)

Just for today, Master, be my breath,
so that each thought is Thine,
every word spoken is Yours,
all work done is for You.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

When am I at peace?

When I feel,
that all is fine,
in my life, as is now,
and body begins swaying.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Responsibility shifts the scene (poem)

When I am with my son (8) and daughter (12),
they fight, scream, yell, pull & hit each other.

But, when I am out, my daughter is baby sitting,
she makes sure that she is calm & does what both like.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God, use me as Thy instrument to share Thy ease (poem)

Its not about,
I can't be around such people,
my body is feeling extremely uneasy
and mind asking, "God, why did you do ever this to me?"

Its only about,
Thank You God for all persons,
my body's pain is requesting "God heal me"
and mind is praying, "God, use me as Thy instrument to heal them".

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Gunjan, to prevent collisions, take each moment like a blind corner (poem)

I was taking my after dinner walk, in our dimly-lit, lush green campus.

I heard some footsteps coming forward, and I halted to gauge the direction of the sound.

Suddenly, a huge man appeared from behind the bushes, his hands were loaded with many small stuff.

We smiled and while crossing, he shared, how once due to his CEO's negligence, they had collided around a blind corner.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Monday, August 1, 2011

O Creator, bless me to seek only Thee (poem)

The love, for the one I love is heartwarming,
But, most uplifting, is my love from my Krishna.

The security, from the one I got is amazing,
But, absolute protection, is the one from my Lord.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God, You are the best (poem)

The blue vastness is beautiful,
The supporting green is comforting,
The melodius chirpers are enchanting,
But, the most wonderful is the God within.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

All is well, when, I am with God (poem)

I am at the ship, in the center of the ocean.
The sky is beautiful, yet the ship is noisy.
I am swimming in the ocean, and its fun.
But, its most serene, at the bottom.

I was living, with mind full of choas.
I began meditating, during which I calmed.
Whenever I was out of it, the noise returned.
But, I continue to be calm, when I retain God.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)