I have a dream to create a world full of honor (poem)

A world in which,
all beings are respected for just the way they are.

A world in which,
all kids go to sleep after eating a nourishing meal.

A  world in which,
all people are honoring & expressing their feelings.

A world in which,
all women are educated to tap their inherent power.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Finding joy with God

SEQUEL TO "SEEKING HAPPINESS FROM RELATIONSHIPS" [AUGUST, 2007]
(http://surrenderlistenandgive.blogspot.com/2007/08/seeking-happiness-from-relationships.html)


Yes, till the time I was not cleared off from all the impressions I had (without my awareness) towards each person in my thoughts/life, I could not be calm or present.

Whether it was my subconscious guilt that I could not meet my mother before she left the world, or the suppressed feelings I had for a boy I had met at teen age when I was not-supposed-to-have them, the pain and helplessness witnessing family tension as a young child or the continuing lack of self-expression as an adult with the husband or with boss at work. Unless, each pain was healed and the impression was removed, I was glued emotionally to that person/interaction  much like, iron-filings on a magnet. No matter how many books I read or to how many people I justified my  pain; nothing helped. The only thing that helped was the Grace.

Circumstances led me to seek God, overcoming my "pleasing-and-seeking-permission-from-people" impression. I was feeling hurt, physically, emotionally and financially and it was the emotional stabbing which made me cry for 3 days and 3 nights and call God to ask Him, "What did I do wrong?" [August, 2007].
I started meditating and started tuning into my heart. Thus began the healing, full of tears which cleansed my suppressed love, guilt, silence and frustrations... to name some feelings.

After almost 6 years, I am complete with my past and feel reborn. During this duration, I swayed, called God in miseries/bigger miseries and drifted my thoughts away from God in my moments of bliss. Now, I am choosing God as my guide, work (https://sites.google.com/a/followthyheart.org/followthyheart/) and goal.

I am with the same people - yet detached, seeking all from God and letting go of what is not coming through.
Its a wonderful place with an incessant love within; the love I was ignorantly searching outside from people.

Joy is right here, right now breathing inside me wherever I am and is being shared with whoever is in front.

My thoughts were my weakness, they would lead me astray towards my desires, next moment or the past. Thoughts still arise and try to lure me away. But, whenever I realize this, I call God to uplift my soul to Thee.

With pride and joy, I announce - I love GOD  :))

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

These are some of my favorite words (poem)

 I

OM

GOD

LOVE

SHARE

KRISHNA

ONENESS

HUMANITY

LISTENING

EXPRESSION

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

"Listen all women, God is the best pain reliever"(poem)

Its amazing, how much pain is deposited deep inside me,
which surfaces during each menstrual cycle.

The pain of my dear mother's helpless tears, ill-health &
fainting of anemic women in my family.

The emotional pain of women who longed for lover
& the humiliation as a queen/maid.

The best pain reliever over centuries has been
surrendering to the God.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

I can express my soul only when I feel safe (poem)

What did I love in College?
I loved singing joyfully with friends,
I always laughed with my belly hurting
and, without my awareness, I was at ease.

When do I feel totally at ease?
whenever, I sense complete safety,
inside my body as well as in my mind
and, without my awareness, I begin to sing.

Where do I allow myself to sing?
wherever, I can express my heart freely,
in shower, while driving or where I feel not judged
for, without my awareness, I am honoring my feelings.

Who do I share my feelings with?
whoever, I feel simply comfortable with,
a stranger or an acquaintance whose heart is open
and, with my awareness, I feel God is taking care of me.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

...right here, right now, at ease with Thee (poem)

Nothing to do,
nowhere to go,
nobody to judge,
right here, right now, at ease with Thee.

Nothing to get,
nowhere to rush,
nobody to desire,
right here, right now, at ease with Thee.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth) 

I am in safe hands (poem)

My lord knows about my needs,
even if I don't.

My lord is taking care of my needs,
even if I won't.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

When I feel stuck, its a good pointer (poem)

Whenever, I am not expressing myself fully,
for a very dear person is being restless/stubborn,
is judging me, is imposing on me, is becoming aloof,
or is lovingly feeding me, what my body no longer can.

Then, I need to remember I'm whole-perfect-complete,
and immediately get reconnected to the Divine within me.
And remind myself that the dear person is expressing fully,
plus, is pointing towards traps, which I've got to emancipate.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)   

Now, I feel whole, perfect and complete (poem)

My Heart is a temple.
My Master is cleaning it.
My Krishna is residing in it.
My Creator is illuminating it.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Follow Thy Heart (Non-profit Organization)

Sharing with pride and gratitude, the website of Follow Thy Heart.

https://sites.google.com/a/followthyheart.org/followthyheart/

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Kindness propagates like a leaf on a wave (poem)

On Dec. 14, I was in the women's locker room,

a lady walked up and asked, "Was it you singing?"

"You don't know how healing it was, after I got pushed..."

She described her pain, when some lady shoved her in Zumba.

I acknowledged her for being honest with her feelings and sharing them.

Later, her "abuser" entered and this time she expressed it directly onto her.

She came out of her "victim" mode, left empowered and smilingly for her exam.

Next day, she mentioned how nice she felt on passing "that" support to her peer.

***

Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

When a heart touches another, without touching (poem)

On Dec., 10, I was offering washed-juicy-big-grapes-in-packs
to the nannies with infants in the park, to the lady delivering mails,
to the construction workers with a smile and a sentence of gratitude;
till, I walked across to the FedEx man sitting high inside his huge truck.

"Why are you doing this?", "Is this a part of your culture?",  he asked
"Nobody has ever done this to me,..you don't know what it means to me.."
then in mellow voice (looking at his dirty hands), "I wish to shake hands, but I won't".
I bowed down with folded hands, explained its meaning* and walked away wiping my eyes.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

*Namaste - this Hindi word (with a bow) means God inside me bows down to the God inside you

Thought is even more crucial than food (poem)

Definitely the salt, the sugar,
the ghee, the nuts and the purity in vegetables
refine the thoughts generated,
inside in my mind and do help overcome judgments.

Also it is very important to,
eat healthy and exercise the body to stay fit
but what is utmost important,
is to filter away all thoughts than love and forgiveness.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Surprisingly, joy quadrupled on sharing (poem)

I reached my sons school,
and a friend's daughter ran to me.

She had a smile in her eyes,
and her spine was way uplifted with pride.

When I lowered down on knees,
I saw a toothless smile in between her ponytails.

Her beaming joy was in her losing-
a second teeth, right in front and in the lower center.

Her joy was infectious and I caught it,
next day, when I offered her a gift; our eyes sparkled with....

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Follow Thy Heart and Create (poem)

Stop wishing for a nurturing meal,
get up, spend time and loving energy to create a meal of your choice.

Stop expecting love in relationships,
forgive, give love and compassion to create relationships that you desire.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)