My mind is constantly busy (poem)

It keeps "focused" on the next conversation with people I will meet.
It "plans" the next step in drying the laundry when the first load is running.
It is always "sharing" the valuable discoveries in kitchen/mind with people I've met.
It feels proud on getting admiration incessantly in these "conversations" or silently around people.
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GOD HELP SURRENDER

I'm observing my thoughts talking all the time (poem)

There is a subconscious-silent  dialogue going on with people talking to me.
It hooks onto all the pain of women characters in the movies, feels it as mine.
It sings a ll the songs and remembers scenes from the movies I've watched.
It constantly analyses and judges my thoughts / past actions as good and bad.
***
GOD HELP SURRENDER 

I desire and I fear (poem)

I desire to have a "union" of body, mind, heart and soul.
I desire to play bells (naltarang), melodiously.
I desire to have a baby born out of "union".
I desire to be love, and radiate it to all.

I fear that people are judging me, for letting them down.
I fear that like an old lady, I am eating and resting.
I fear that I am collapsing, for lack of nutrition.
I fear that I am on medication, forever.

***
God Help Surrender

The fact is...

Nobody can make me happy or upset.

I can't make anyone happy or upset.

Still I get caught up in my feelings.

And I interpret interactions.

***
God help surrender

Intention Matters...

...while singing a song,
not lyrics.

...while communicating an opinion,
not judgement.

***
God help surrender

God connect me to peace within...

experienced only in glimpses
while sharing my "shameful" stories
while being respectful to underprivileged  kids
offering food to workers on street as "God's child".

when I am with my talking head - mostly alone or with strangers in stores
when I am in the ocean of dear people's  anxiety, expectations, fears, judgement(s).
when I am around people who are busy with gadgets or gossip about TV shows/their world.
when I am feeling fearful that I will get more pain and less sleep if I pick up the ringing phone or interact.
***
Peace

God help surrender... (poem)

attachment to expectations- from people
attachment to fears-about sleep, pain, future
attachment to judging- my desires and others actions
attachment to good/bad- my thoughts and my interactions

attachment to scattering-my jumping thoughts take me off  task
attachment to silent talking- with myself and all persons in my world
attachment to seeking acknowledgement-for anything and everything I do
attachment to resisting- all who are not dressed or communicating, the way I like.

***
Peace

There is only now- Physics Point of View (Poem)

There is only one moment called now.
For there is only one space and time coordinate, corresponding to each event.
With the same two people, at the same place, time is changing with each passing breath.
So, when you hear yourself say, "I'll do it next time..."; you may wanna stop, and do it for there is only present - to follow your heart.

Enjoy the bliss in Following Thy heart :))

www.FollowThyHeart.org

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Just Be and Let it Be

Who am I? (part)

Compassionate
Courageous
Determined
Free
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I am a part of Source

...right here, right now with Thee III (poem)

The part-I of this poem is on this bolg at
 http://surrenderlistenandgive.blogspot.com/2012/12/right-here-right-now-at-ease-with-thee.html
and part II of this poem is on this blog at
http://surrenderlistenandgive.blogspot.com/2013/03/right-here-right-now-at-ease-with-thee.html

***

Nothing to resist,
nowhere to travel,
nobody to complain,
right here, right now, with Thee
***
Search for virtues, and you will discover them 

When listening turned into a reward (poem)

I saw her limping body approaching mine,
and I glanced at her with my arms closed.
While listening to her slow-stammering,
my arms dropped down loose to the belly.

All through, I was listening with attention,
her talking about love, gratitude and God.
I felt my arms opening up to her embrace,
overflowing with sweet-and-innocent love.
***
"Act, but without attachment to its reward", Krishna in Gita

...right here, right now, at ease with Thee - II (poem)

Part I of this poem is on this blog at
http://surrenderlistenandgive.blogspot.com/2012/12/right-here-right-now-at-ease-with-thee.html

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Nothing to fix,
nowhere to reach,
nobody to change,
right here, right now, at ease with Thee.

Nothing to fear,
nowhere to attach,
nobody to oppose,
right here, right now, at ease with Thee.

***
"Act without attachment to its actions", says Krishna in Gita

What is most important?

"My most important engagement is with God", Yogananda
***
"Act without attachment to its actions", Krishna 

I sensed my illusion (poem)

I complained once again,
and felt pain inside my body.

For I had judged another,
as if I were a separate entity.

***
Ma phaleshou kada chana   (Act without attachment to its fruits).

Protection matters (poem)

I was having lunch outside,
on the bench surrounded by grass
experiencing the warm sun and fresh breeze;
even though I had the key to the pool, offering the same.

Suddenly, the sprinklers turned on,
and I was all wet before I could rescue
myself and my belongings from getting drenched;
and I saw the key to the pool which offers all plus protection.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Everything returns, even gratitude (poem)

With an Indian sweet in ziplocks,

I was offering it to whoever I met on my walk;

the nannies in the park, the mailman, FedEx man,

till I walked inside the fire station to express gratitude.

They were doing a demonstration,

and one of them inquired, "How can I help you?"

I offered thanks for their services (as a neighbor) while offering;

later at a store another fireman (who recognized me), appreciated the gesture.

***

Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

O God, I surrender my judgement...(poem)

...which traps me in good as well as bad
and that creates my attachments plus the resistances
in addition to inflicting pain in my body (the vehicle for soul);
like the pain I'd experience, sitting inside a car hitting all on its way.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Who knows what is good or bad? (poem)

Six years ago when my back got injured,
and I was in intense emotional and physical pain;
I felt my world had come to an end and that was the worst,
but, it was then I called and found God within me, so was the injury bad?
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

When a heart recognizes love (poem)

Every time I drove by this crossing helper,

I wanted to thank her for the smiles and service.

On February 11, at about 8 :15 am, I felt inspired 

to offer her/her peers some "home made Indian sweets".

But, I had a doubt if she would be open to receiving "it".

Anyways, I drove and waved at her when I saw her leaving.

I walked closer, expressed my gratitude and offered "it" to her.

Hey, she surprised me with big eyes and an instant squeezing hug. 

***

Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Feb. 15, 2013 1:16 pm

O Creator, bless me with...(poem)

Mother Teresa's compassion.
Amma's lightheartedness.
Gandhi's simplicity.
Chari's love.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Lets talk about God (poem)

Lets talk about love.
Lets talk about bliss.
Lets talk about ease.
By talking about God.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

O mind, do you mind stepping aside

When I am in my mind,
the body pains or I feel cold.

Then I feel the pressure,
of the learning and my fears.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Joy comes from peace, which comes from ease (poem)

When body has all the comforts,
like a rich person with all his buys,
he cannot be at ease until and unless,
his mind is resting completely as he rests.

When mind has its inner bliss,
like a saint with his inner peace,
he cannot be at ease until and unless,
his body gets the food, clothing and shelter.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

This is mental war (poem)

When I judge "it" as good,
I really like it to happen that way,
and all that happens any another way,
I dislike, resist and thereby cause intense pain.
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Who am I to judge? (poem)

When do I judge?
when I'm in mind

Who do I judge?
mostly myself

Does it feel nice?
no, its painful

Would I check it?
starting now

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

I see myself with a...(poem)

singing heart,

present mind,

peaceful soul,

glowing body.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Same lesson, different teachers (poem)

Its all about learning to be present,
(completely) in this moment, called now.

And each interaction is pointing out,
(loud and clear), "hey, there you go again".
***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

....And suddenly, I was fine with others using my blanket (poem)

I saw my blanket pulled out from the pile

crumbled up and thrown on top of my chair,

I inferred that someone had used it in my absence

without my permission and then left it away carelessly.

I felt agitated, for it meant that someone had crossed my limits,

it meant they were disrespectful towards me and they could do whatever.

But, as soon as I began meditating I could sense "I, me and mine" attacking,

and I could see that was nothing but my mental separation; I let it go and eased.

***

Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Jan. 27, 2013 12:01 pm

FYI God, You are the...(poem)

breath in my body,
thought in my mind,
heartbeat in my heart,
and purpose of my soul.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

How can I always be with Thee? (poem)

Let attachments go.
Let  resistances subside.
Let seeking from people stop.
Let thoughts be focused only on God.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

On the computer of my mind...(poem)

... God be
the screen saver,
my choice of browser,
and flashing pop up reminders.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Its fun, observing (poem)

My mind fears my husband's judgement, when I run the tap to let water heat up.
I noticed my fears, pushed them and with courage turned it on with full flow.

My mind creates a story, when my daughter didn't throw trash hanging on door.
I noticed my story,  deleted it and with a smile threw it in the garbage outside.

My mind desires nobody rushes, when my son is shoving breakfast and chokes.
I noticed my blaming,  shoved it and stepped forward to pat his back to ease.

My mind hears my son's questioning later, when I'd do what I did in his presence.
I noticed my  lack of presence,  pulled my thoughts back and returned to now.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

I see in the Sunrise...(poem)

Perfection
Stillness
Beauty
Peace

This is Your creation.
I am Your creation.
We are all one.
I am these.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

I have promises to keep and miles to go, before I sleep (poem)

The school bell has rung.
I am packing up my backpack.
I know, it will take some time to reach home.
And "I have promises to keep and miles to go, before I sleep".

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Who is the most cheerful companion?

God within

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Who am I?

The observer

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

What is the purpose of my life?

To love


***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Whether its life or food, its all about balance (poem)

Life is not about constant complaining.
Life is not about incessant laughter.
Life is only about feeling peaceful.
Life is to balance safety/purpose.

Food is not about satisfying five desires.
Food is not about counting the calories.
Food is only about feeling nourished.
Food is to balance healing/craving.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Surrender is...(poem)

knowing, if its not happening
whatever, I am desiring (in this moment)
then, my Lord doesn't want it to happen (now)
and, He is the only one, who (really) knows whats good for me.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Happiness Vs Joy (poem)

When happiness comes,
sorrow follows.

When joy arrives,
nothing follows.

***
Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)