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Sunday, October 31, 2010

These are a few of my of favorite things...(poem)

The soft touch of infant's chubby cheeks,
The aroma of the swelling chapati on direct fire,
The sound of chirping hidden birds and giggling kids,
The taste of home made thick yogurt with crystal sugar,
The sight of clouds formation on adding milk to black tea.

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Aum Tat Sat

Friday, October 29, 2010

All thats "noisy", need not be fixed (poem)

As I sat down to meditate,
I heard the sound of water drops,
I thought it was some tap which was dripping,
But it was the internal flow in refrigerator's freezer.

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Aum Tat Sat

I am one with all (poem)

I was seeking oneness from outside,
I was seeking intimacy with another,
I did not know that this is who I AM,
I am one with all, & intimate with all.

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Aum Tat Sat

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Love now (poem)

Live in now, not later.

Create love, don't wait.

Give love, receive love.

Just love, no matter what.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Granpa used to say, "First, love yourself " (poem)

My Granpa used to say,
"Gunjan, first love yourself totally.",

I did not understand it,
for a long time, for my priority was loving others,

But, now I understand it,
when I am able to love my thoughts, words, actions, body completely,

Then, I accept myself fully,
and naturally I am able to accept another, and love him for whatever he is being.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Seek from the Infinite, not from the finite (poem)

When I seek from the Infinite, it always gets arranged,
for He is The Universal Provider, like papa was, when I was 5.

When I seek from the Finite, they induce their respective fears,
for they are full of their own fears, like my big brother was, when I was 5.

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Aum Tat Sat

When I am separating from a dear person... (poem)

I am unable to sing even along with my favorite song,
I am quiet, yet am dying to talk to a listening friend,
I am continuously crying, during successive meditations,
I am breaking somewhere inside me, and am silenced by pain.

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Aum Tat Sat

Monday, October 25, 2010

God, You be my breathing partner and...(poem)

Bless me, so that I can observe,
Bless me, so that I may serve,
Bless me, so that I love,
Bless me, so that I Be.

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Aum Tat Sat

God, I surrender...(poem)

My mind with its impressions and ego,
My sense organs with its desires,
My body with its experiences,
My heart with its emotions.

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Aum Tat Sat

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Eventually we will all get THERE, via our own paths (poem)

I was planning to go for my seminar in a carpool,
but the traffic did not allow me to budge even a bit,
I called them up and said, "Guys, I am stuck, you move on",
I took a U turn and drove alone, but somehow made there in time.

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Aum Tat Sat

God bless everyone, for they really need it (poem)

May God bless all beings everywhere with all that they really need,
and may all beings, be able to open up & receive with an open heart.

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Aum Tat Sat

Oh my ego, step aside (poem)

My mind garbage,
and tokyo tower ego,
keep me from knowing,
and spelling out my needs.

Once, I put it aside,
I am brimming to give,
and I open to receiving,
in contentment & fulfillment.
***
Aum Tat Sat

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Love is a choice I am making from moment to moment (poem)

When my 7 year old son spills out half the eggs while beating,
When I see an autistic 7 year old child unable to focus in class,
When I see one of the senior teachers losing her temper on a student,
When I watch a student starting to cry on getting scolded by that teacher.
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Aum Tat Sat

2 Tools that are helping me in creating the life, I choose

1. Sahaj Marg
In April, 2007 I was bed ridden due to back injury and I was in a lot of emotional pain. I started meditation and cleaning the imprints on mind of past/present, which has led to dissolve, my mind stuff, by simply manifesting who I am, a peaceful loving being.

Before that, I was "who I am supposed to be", the way people/society wished me to be. I did not pay any attention to what the soft voice within me was saying. I was constantly falling sick/into accidents hyperthyroid, back injury etc, everything but peace. I was not happy with my life. I had tons of questions, who I am, why I am here? etc. but no answers. I was helpless most of the time, while waiting for good things to happen to me.
Also I had changed my jobs from industry to teaching at the University but was still not content with that, and wondered what I am here to do?

When I began meditation, I started writing and releasing my baggage of thoughts, which had become fossils. It also gave me immense clarity for what I wished to pursue in my career and how to pursue it, fearlessly, come what may, for it connected me to the entire Universe, the oneness that exists but is invisible; much like wind.

Now, I wish everyone in my family or I meet, begin practicing sahaj marg or any form of meditation, but I do know that this is something which will work only when that person is open to receiving. So, those of you who are ready and open, please, please go for it.

Sahaj Marg (meaning, the easy way), my meditation group, is absolutely free and is spread all over the world, with its roots in India. I follow it for meditation and daily cleaning of thoughts before sleeping. It is making me more and more fearless, grounded, peace with myself and loving with each passing moment. Those who know me closely, have experienced it, right?

Ask me for more details or go to the website http://www.sahajmarg.org/homepage

2. Landmark education
In Dec. 2009, I had found peace within, but did not wish to be with people, because they would frurstrate me.

Then, I began Landmark education for life, rather my brother pushed me into it in India. It took me through a logical path to see my blind spots and emanicipated me from my fixed ways of being, which were/are eating me and most importantly my relationships, both old and new.

I have learned to forgive and just love, dig into my hidden ways, reconnect and just be myself, both in self expression and while communicating with people. It focuses on making me take full responsibilty of my own life, creating possibilities, and making them happen amidst whatever is happening in terms of circumstances or the way people are appearing.

It provided me a perspective, which I could never see, otherwise. It is rebuilding my relationships and my life. I am beginning to be peaceful with more and more people, near and far.

Now, I am creating a possibility of being in the moment, fully present, aware of the mind chatter and be myself - the loving being who I really am, towards each and everyone in my life or thoughts.

I started this in India, but am pursuing it in US. Its global, has a fee but its worth every cent. If I were to give a gift to someone dear, I would register them by paying and transform their lives in Landmark forum (3 day course in a weekend).

Ask me more details or go to the website http://www.landmarkeducation.com/
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And, ofcourse the love from my family members, especially my siblings and father, old and new friends and complete strangers who are walking into my life and provinding me all that I need in that moment, love, support, listening, laughter, fun, singing etc. is making me feel touched, moved and inspired, by the entire humanity.

I am sharing with an intention that this helps many more people, in finding their untapped completeness and joy in being loving towards all people. So that once they have got it, they in turn can share it with each person in their own little worlds.

I call it baby step towards world peace.

Wishing you all peace and joy,
Gunjan Raizada Chakravarty

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Aum Tat Sat

Just like a spoon standing in water appears different from various angles... (poem)

When I am seeing with love, I become compassionate.
When I am experiencing in helplessness, I frustrate.

When I am manifesting my genuineness, I am at peace.
When I am pretending to myself or others, I am chaos.

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Aum Tat Sat

Friday, October 22, 2010

Physics, Pray and Love (poem)

Now, I know I am here,
to observe Physics everywhere with kids,
to sprinkle the unconditional love with everyone,
and to be in incessant connection with the divinity within.

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Aum Tat Sat

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

We are walking towards each other...(poem)

We come and stand close,
we can feel each other's breath,
we interlace our fingers into each others,
and I lift myself on my toes to kiss his forehead.

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Aum Tat Sat

OMG, intimacy does feel good (poem)

I feel I've been such a dumpster,
accumulating and holding on for decades,
my strong judgements about myself and others,
Thank God, now, I'm beginning to feel the lightness,
in surrendering these sedimentations and petrified stones,
which have been blocking my loving Self to surfcae and shine,
Oh my God, it surely does feel wonderful to be intimate once again,
be it with an old acquaintance, a complete stranger or my own dear people.
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Aum Tat Sat

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Today I drop self-pity and pick up oneness to spread Universal love (poem)

At 4:44am, I started my car to meet my preceptor for a cleaning of imprints sitting and I heard my soft voice telling me, Gunjan, Universal love = world peace, something I had been wishing for last 2 years.

During the individual sitting, I surrendered my love and attachment, for the one in my heart and promised to release/share it with all those who need it in this world. And I know everyone needs it.

Later this morning (6:30 am) with my family I was full of it, then I sent it to 2 people in emails and during my walk I gave it verbally to a mom I met and in my mind to the the lawn mowers, and all beings everywhere.

At noon I shared it with a friend over the phone call, and we both felt blessed.

For almost 10 months, only my intention was to create love, now I've got the access code to it, unconditional love.

God, Krishna, Master, Universe, Nature, Divine souls and people in my life and thought be with me, support me in this, bless me, use me as Thy instrument. I really need it, for that is what gives me fulfillment and joy. And I know, thats what you wish me to be.

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When I send out God's blessings,
When I share God's love,
then I am one with all,
and I send out a ripple of peace.

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Aum Tat Sat

Loving for the sake of loving (poem)

When I judge him as wrong,
I blame him for the problem,
then I feel extreme helplessness,
and I get sucked into the self-pity.

When I love come what may,
I send out blessings full of love,
then I feel an instantaneous uplifting,
and I get filled with perfect healing.

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Aum Tat Sat

God bless me and let this Niagara falls of love nurture all those who need (poem)

When I love someone,
I just love him too much,
so much, that I impose,
make him claustrophobic,
and somewhere I seek,
from him something back,
feel disappointed in pain,
when he doesn't meet it.

In whatever way it goes,
it does not make him easy,
and nor does it leave me,
feeling fulfilled in any way,
so I've got to transmute,
this enormous Niagara falls,
of pure love within me,
and pour it on all who need.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Monday, October 18, 2010

Access code matters (poem)

My sister is on her business trip to UK,
She texted me the phone number to reach her,
I kept on trying to dial the number she had sent,
and it turned out that the access number was wrong.

In that moment it struck me how important access code is,
having just the right number is not enogh to get me connected,
just as in most of my communications, each time I feel frustrated,
there is perhaps something significant missing in my approach that hinders.

Perhaps its been going on and on in my blind corner without my awareness,
now that its struck me, hey dear friends and family reading this right now,
please reach me and let me know in personal messages (if thats comfortable for you),
as to how do you experience it in my communication with you that comes up and disconnects us.

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Aum Tat Sat

Sunday, October 17, 2010

There is something within...(poem)

There is a soft voice within,
which always whispered gently,
and I constantly ignored over people,
which I am now trying to stay tuned into.

There is a loving guidance within,
which incessantly suggested humbly,
and I constantly ignored enveloped in fears,
which I am now trying to follow with all my faith.

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Aum Tat Sat

Saturday, October 16, 2010

From Heels to Sneakers (poem)

I still remember that day,
I was rushing from Block I to Block VI in IITD,
from lecture on optical waveguides towards Lasers,
when I reached the door, everyone'e eyes were glued to the entrance,
including the oldie Professors, even though the lecture had already started,
I walked in, sat down consciously on my seat at the back and then the lecture resumed,
Later I was told by a friend who was inside the lecture hall that, when I was walking in the corridor,
all through my rushed walk in heels, they could hear each one of my thup-thups in that long-silent corner,
that was the last day I wore heels at IITD and literally gave them up, for I began chasing the so called life.
But now, I realize life is much more fun walking in sneakers, rather than chasing after one thing or the other.
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Aum Tat Sat

Friday, October 15, 2010

To my CAMBRIDGE SCHOOL CLASSMATES:(poem)

Thank you Subin for reconnecting me to my loving Self.
Thank you Preeti for reconnecting me to my sharing Self.
Thank you Sonia for reconnecting me to my focused Self.
Thank you Anurag for reconnecting me to my laughing Self.
Thank you Praveen for reconnecting me to my singing Self.
Thank you Rajesh for reconnecting me to my innocent Self.
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Aum Tat Sat

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I did not know this that, I have been a victim of my own thoughts (poem)

My mind generates the chemical interaction I have,
in my thoughts or in person with the other person,
and it arise, floats around and induces within me,
a strong repelusion or attachment towards itself.

If I like it as a soothing thought, I cling to it,
and if I dislike it, for it feels uneasy, I shove it,
whichever be the case, I dissipate a lot of my energy,
which could have been spent into something productive.

Wow, I had been using most of my energy into pumping,
the amplifier of my thoughts, my mind, what a waste,
I know that thoughts will arise, but they need to go,
for its like air in my environment, which must flow.

All these decades I had been unkowingly recyling energy,
but into resisting, attaching and judging people in life,
whereas I could have always been simply my loving self,
and rechannelize my energy towards productive creativity.

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Aum Tat Sat

Why am I not able to bow to most people? (poem)

When I see an idol or a picture of Ganesha, Krishna, Master
something within automatically mellows down and I simply bow.

When I know very well that, that idol or picture isn't God,
and it's been made by a poor person in unhygenic conditions.

When I know that God is within me from my own experience,
that I could'nt access it for decades due to immense clutter.

When I know that God is somewhere inside each one of us,
even in those people who are now being unloving towards me.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Boys are boys, girls are girls, God, they are poles apart (poem)

I was at the childcare of my meditation group, after doing a Physics exercise for an hour on liquids having different densities, with oil and water; on their request I let them have free play time in that huge hall. This is what I observed.

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All boys from age 6 to 16 were busy chasing the ball,
throwing up, catching it, pushing each other to get it, and even snatching it.

Younger girls around age 7 were busy in pretend games,
and the older girls between 10 to13 were busy talking, playing with toddlers.

No wonder, these little ones turn into adults poles apart,
men busy with golf/blackberries, and women talking about kids/ other people.

In that moment, I wondered how would these two ever connect,
when they both speak different languages and are sitting on far away planets.

Perhaps, just like oil and water which always appear as separate layers,
but they too could be blended together by beating with a fork and external force.

I do know that somewhere, there exists a fork of communication,
and a loving force of perspective, which can surely blend them together into one.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Its all in the experience and not the circumstances (poem)

No matter what is happening around me,
or someone is choosing to be the way he is,
I always have a choice to be joyful through that,
first by dropping resistances and then being my loving Self.

Now, that I am revisiting my past events,
as a natural part of dissolving what I am not,
I am getting present to the fact that instead of,
suffering like a victim, I could have blessed everyone with Joy.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Monday, October 11, 2010

When your daughter gets molested, ask her not to shhhh...about it (poem)

When I was 14 and a stranger masked boy attacked me
and I came home and shared it with my mother,
I was told not to share it with anyone,
and unknowingly I became a victim.

Two years later around the same neighborhood,
one of my close friend got attacked,
and reached my home all shaken up,
and I felt guilty for being sh..

When I was 16 and an uncle in family touched me,
and I shared it with my sister and mother,
I was told to be normal yet careful,
and I began feeling helplessness.

I faced that uncle in family gatherings,
and welcomed him unwillingly to my home,
bearing his uncomfortable glances,
and I started accepting society.

Later, travelling in the local buses,
I got pinched by invisible hands,
followed by leching on streets,
and I stopped complaining.

Then, when I was 22, while doing Ph.D.,
I was periodically hugged very tightly,
which left me confused and uneasy,
but I could not tell him to stop.

In all these 8 years, I lost my childhood,
I felt all men need only one thing,
for blaming others and self-pity,
had made me spineless.

But, today, somehow I find courage to share my history,
with an intention that no other girl feels helpless,
no matter whatever pain she is experiencing,
due to a stranger, family or dear person.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Its so emanicipating (poem)

All these 42 years I had been judging,
dear people trying to squeeze them in metal frames,
and clamping my own thoughts which I sensed were inappropriate,
till I finally dropped them on this very special b'day and experienced the freedom.

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Aum Tat Sat

Just laugh it out (poem)

Its Ok to laugh,
whatever it is about,
whether its fantasy or a joke,
as long as I'm not judging someone.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Now, I seek to induce...(poem)

I have always been extremely emotional, sensitive and open,
so when I am around people having fears, disconnection and desires,
I easily get induced by their respective insecurities, separateness and lust,
Now, I seek blessings and support, to manifest Thy completeness, oneness and love.
***
Aum Tat Sat

Sunday, October 10, 2010

I realize...(poem)

I may not,
be able to control my thoughts,
but, I can choose
not to let thoughts control me.

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Aum Tat Sat

Friday, October 8, 2010

Waht about each now, right now? (poem)

The past is over,
the future is uncertain,
however, I have this moment,
each now to create all that I wish.

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Aum Tat Sat

What is being in now? (poem)

To me being in now is,
observing all that is happening within me,
being with the experience whatever it appears to be,
without wishing it to be different or better in any way.

***
Aum Tat Sat

I have been emotionally handicapped (poem)

I feel, I have been emotionally handicapped for 4 decades,
for I seeked love, affection and support from others in my life,
much like a physically handicapped seeks support from the crutches,
till I realized that I am perfect and complete and I am here to GIVE.

***
Aum Tat Sat

I did not know this...(poem)

Judging hurts both,
the one who is judged and the one who is judging.

Loving heals both,
the one who is loved and the one who is loving.

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Aum Tat Sat

Gunjan....(poem)

Don't resist your own thoughts,
Don't resist any of others thoughts.

Love each one of your thoughts,
Love others with all their thoughts.

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Aum Tat Sat

God, transform self-pitying into smiles (poem)

Transform judging into loving,
Transform frustrating into creating,
Transform experiencing into observing,
Transform helplessness into empowerment.

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Aum Tat Sat

Universe is constantly arranging (poem)

When my kids gave me their cards on my b'day,
I asked them where are my the flowers,
and soon after the door bell rang,
a neighbor came in with flowers.

I was contemplating who to share the information,
about observing Physics with kids everywhere,
then at noon at a friend's birthday party,
one of her friends told me the answer.

***

Aum Tat Sat

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Flush out all old thoughts, before creating fresh ones (poem)

Just as my printer,
needs to print out all,
thats sitting inside its memory,
before it is ready to print out fresh inputs.

My mind needs to release,
each and every possible thought,
which has been hiding inside for over decades,
so that there is space for fresh creative ideas to manifest.

***
Aum Tat Sat

When I love all my thoughts, I love myself and begin to love everyone (poem)

My thoughts are,
a chemical reaction,
which takes place between,
my circumstances and my body, mind, senses.

My thoughts are,
not right, if they follow norms,
not wrong, if they defy guidelines by family,
they are just there surfacing as a result of interactions.

My thoughts are,
not who I really am completely,
for they are just a small part of how I experience,
so there need not be any shame or pride in acknowledging them.

My thoughts are,
what I am experiencing in that moment,
and they drain my power if I withhold them inside,
and they uplift my energy, if I accept them as mine, and share with respect.

***
Aum Tat Sat

My recipie for dissolving into my loving Self-1 (poem)

Be in now.

Thank You God.

Nothing Really Matters.

I am here to give and receive, not to expect.

Accept all of my thoughts, words, actions (Self Love)

Embrace everyone with all their thoughts, words, actions (Universal Love).

***
Aum Tat Sat

Flowchart from love to Joy (poem)

What does love make me feel?
Connected.

What does Connection make me feel?
Supported.

What does supported make me feel?
Giving.

What does giving make make feel?
Fulfilled.

What doe fulfillment give me?
Joy.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Judge or love? (poem)

What do I need?
Joy.

What has judging given me?
Frustration.

What has frustration given me?
Sadness.

What has sadness given me?
Pain.

What has pain given me?
Disconnection.

So does judging give me joy?
No.

Once I have judged and feel disconnected, what am I seeking?
Love.

Why love?
For, I know it gives Joy.

What do I need?
Joy.

So how can I be joyful?
When I feel Loved.

How do I feel loved?
When I am surrounded by love.

Am I always around people who love me?
Not always.

Then how do I be joyful always?
By creating love constantly.

Why would I choose to be loving when I don't experience love around someone?
For selfish reasons, to feel joyful, which aises when I am enveloped in love, incessantly.

So, what is the surest way to be joyful?
Just give love, dropping everything else.

***
Aum Tat Sat



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Aum Tat Sat

Now, that I am 42...(poem)

I realize,
its no point resisting thoughts,
for they would surface in my mind anyways,
even if my morals stand up with all force against them.

I know,
that its really no point resisting thoughts,
for if they are not allowed to surface in this moment,
they would sit inside, rust and then manifest after few decades.

I believe,
that there is no thought which is wrong or right,
its my senses which receive so many signals as input,
and passes it to the mind, which in its own wisdom keeps on judging.

I accept,
that I am not this body, mind, senses and experiences,
for I am an observer, which is here, only to love everyone,
by constantly rejecting and overruling all that mind is interpreting.

***
Aum Tat Sat

When I was 40...(poem)

I told him, I cared for him,
at 16,
and,
at 40.

I judged him, as a weak person,
at 16,
and
at 40.

I knew, I was attached to him,
at 16,
and
at 40.

I realized, I longed for him,
at 16,
and
at 40.

***
Aum Tat Sat

When I was 16, I did not tell him that...(poem)

One morning, I woke up with a thought,
that he is saving my life,
by covering me and rolling on floor,
to save me from attacks.

Another night, I woke up with a thought,
that we are dancing together,
like a ball room dancers in perfect synch,
looking into each other's eyes.

In my singing class, I was thinking of him,
when the teacher pointed out,
and asked me why I have been mentally absent,
I blushed with my head down.

I was literally following my mothers sermon,
of not getting distracted,
while studying in high school to just study,
for I felt it was immoral.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Monday, October 4, 2010

Its all in my thoughts...(poem)

When I think of him,
I sing with smiles.

When I fear leaving him,
I cry in hurting pain.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Each time I think of you, I visualize this...(poem)

I am standing there with my body pinning against yours.
My arms are wrapped around your neck, and yours holding me tight.
My cheek is glued into your chest and my tears are penetrating your shirt.
In that joyful moment, there is absolute oneness, support, love and complete giving.

***
Aum Tat Sat

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Perfection within imperfection (poem)

When I connect within,
then I OBSERVE I am perfect and complete,
that I am a peaceful soul, which is here to love,
and so is each and every being in all possible creations.

When I get trapped in my mind, body and senses,
then I EXPERIENCE the pleasures and sorrows due to their input,
whenever, I attach, judge, resist, express or withhold in frustration,
and I hold the people and circumstances, responsible for my joy or pain.

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Aum Tat Sat

God, I need these as my 42nd B'day gift (poem)

O the Supreme Dissolver, bless me, so that, I am cleansed of all my blaming and complianing.
O the Supreme Lover, bless me, so that, I am able to communicate with words of genuine affection.
O the Supreme Creator, bless me, so that, I am able to observe my experience with complete perspective.
O the Supreme Protector, bless me, so that, I am able to listen everyone with a heart brimming with Thy compassion.

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Aum Tat Sat

Friday, October 1, 2010

How come same event is experienced differently? (poem)

When I observe an event, I experience it via my personal interpretation,
Which may or may not match with the other witnessing it in the same time and space,
For, each one of us is experiencing the same event through the lens made up of the package of our own past experiences,
But, when we share openly how we both experienced it, then there is no fog in between, and that complete perspective transforms the entire experience.

***
Aum Tat Sat