Now, my mind cannot stop me from loving, for, I NEED to love (poem)

At age 4, I was very uneasy, for, without my awareness,
my heart wished to love, but my mind was fearful of his anger.

At 16, I was very uneasy, for, without my awareness,
my heart was loving him, but my mind was saying "Its not the right age".

At 22, I was very uneasy, for, with all my awareness,
my heart was loving him, but my mind was blocking, for he had said "no" to me.

At 38 to 42, I was very uneasy, for, with all my awareness,
my heart was craving to love, but my mind was saying, "why love, for he does not care".

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

The hardest thing for me, is to stop myself from loving (poem)

I used to walk off the ground,
and my own smile felt sweet to me,
I did not judge against his smoking,
when at age 22, I had let myself love.

I used to scream out his name in restroom,
and my handwriting had never been so beautiful,
I had shut all that free flowing love towards him,
when he had said, that he didn't feel the same for me.

I was crying on a wet pillow, with a severe pain in heart,
and a sharp needle was piercing at the center of my wounded soul,
I was crushed, lonely, shattered and scattered like a broken light bulb,
when I desired to love him, but my mind was blocking me, for he had said no.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God says, "Face fears with Courage, not by searching for Love" (poem)

As a child when I was fearful of papa's anger,
I used to hide inside the restroom till he calmed,
for I thought somewhere it was wrong, as my body pained,
and I found ease only by being under my mother's pouring love.

But, now I realized that I continued doing the same as an adult,
I noticed I was uncomfortable being around angry or judging people,
I kept on fleeing from them, judging them as "not kind" or "my type",
till with divine Grace, that little Gunjan in me, faced fear with Thee.

Thank You God :))
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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

So far, I was ignorant, now, I am not (poem)

So far, I seeked from people,
now, I am giving as Thy instrument.

So far, I was a victim of mind,
now, I am realizing it was my choice.

So far, I was blinded by "I am right",
now, I am experiencing another persons pain.

So far, I had felt responsible for others feelings,
now, I am beginning to take responsibility for my emotions.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Just this..

"Take care, relax and be peace; for this is the only moment, which is yours."

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God resides in my heart as Love (poem)

I used to worhsip idols,
then when I called God,
He led me to Himself,
inside my own heart.
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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

Now, I 've got to love, even if another judges, for...(poem)

Judgment stabs,
both the one judging and judged.

Love heals,
both the one loving and loved.

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Aum Tat Sat (God is Truth)

God lives in our hearts as Love.